The First Thought of Truth

The Lord stood by His child in prayer.
He smiled and asked His child,
“Dear sweet one, what makes you think of Me when I am beside you… within you… above you… and around you, keeping you in the bosom of My love?”
The child replied,
“O Sweet Lord, I know You are always there. I also know that You have not forsaken me even for a moment. It is I, O Lord, that forgets to see Your steps beside me when all is well and when I receive from You the fruit of desire. I am weak for I cannot live without my wishes and yet I long for your grace and your strength in me.”
The Lord replied,
“O Child who makes Me full in love, to you I speak truth and truth alone. Yes! I stand with you in your every moment. I have all that you desire in the palm of My Hand. No prayer is impossible for Me to answer… no boon is beyond My reach to give… I give to you what you want when you do not have the patience to wait anymore… I then see you in your moments of temporary joy where you play with the fruit of desire and immerse in its pleasures. You forget that I stand by you. You forget to turn to Me and ask Me for the Hand that holds you and the Universe and all the eye can see… but instead, you thank Me for a moment and forget your gratitude while the fruit of the desire becomes slowly you. And then, when you begin to see its colors in you… you dislike yourself, and suddenly the sweetness of the fruit you tasted becomes bitter. It is not the fruit that changed, My child… it is you who changed from the peace of prayer to the turmoil of wanting yet not waiting for what you asked…”
The child wept, and the tears of repentance cleansed his heart. He turned to his beloved Lord and asked,
“O Lord who knows me more than myself! O Lord who loves me more than I can ever know or understand, to You I wish to return. I asked for all that I never needed… yet, you gave without a word… I asked for You to wait while I enjoyed and chased every wave of desire that emerged from thought. I left You, O Lord, and instead fostered the thought… embraced it, held it in the palm of my hands, and offered thought by thought at Your Lotus Feet. I wished for You to place Your blessed Hand upon each of my thoughts, and asked in prayer to make all of it germinate to life and come true. Now, I see, O Lord, why You waited… why You gave me more time to reflect on my prayer… for each time my thought germinated and the tree of ignorance was born… I fell in the shade and darkness of greed and tasted the sweet bitter fruit that turned my heart into the fears of selfishness, and my mind into the dust of me… me… me… O Lord, I wish to forget the thought I think, and I wish only to think of You beside me… within me… above me… and around me. In that, I remain unchanged no matter what happens, and stay rooted in You.”
The Lord embraced His child and spoke,
“You have asked for Me this time. That gift is already yours. But, I shall give to you the thought of truth as the first thought you shall always think. And whatever thoughts shall follow, they shall turn to the light of the thought of truth and merge into its purity and goodness… The nature of the mind is to think of what it sees… what it hears… what it feels… but if you shall grasp the thought of truth, the mind shall move, yet you shall stay in the bliss of the first thought that you shall remain aware of… alone…
The Universe cannot remain still for you… time cannot give you the same… but if you hold on to the gift of the first thought of truth, then you shall face all of life being aware only of the first thought of truth that I gave to you.”
Suddenly, a flash of light emanated from the Lord and reached the head of His child.
The first thought had placed its brilliance within the child that bent in prayer…
It said,
“I am the only I that you shall speak to and see…
I am the only I that you shall bend to and be…
I am the only I that shall save you and shall make you free…
I am the only I in which truth exists and all that comes returns to Me.”
That is the first and the only thought that the child of God is aware of… and this first thought of truth shall make any child of God at any moment return to the bliss of his source…